about me?

It’s kinda fishy to talk about myself, feel kinda strange or something like that. Well, let me start, my name is Herriyanto, my Chinese name is 子雄, but people known me as Skell, there is some funny story behind my nickname, but we’ll talk about it later.

I have a bloodtype A, Zodiac Cancer, and Shio Earth Snake, if you can put the personality from each type into one person, you will find me.

I am tall, like a 175cm, but people said I must be 180cm @_@, maybe because I am thin, so I looks taller than usual. And, I am white, very white, I prefer to say a ‘pure white’ when my friends says ‘pale white’, hahhaa, that doesn’t make different. My skin and fingers, they are somewhat attractive for girls, females always want a long slim fingers and white flawless skin without hairy like mine, they often ask to change skin, hahahhaa. It is said that I must be born a girl, but my mom prayed for a boy after my two sisters, so the God was so kind and sent me as a boy, thx God.

When I was little, I was very religious, every 9p.m. was a praying time, but as I grew up, I found that world doesn’t seems to rotate around the God, but it rotating beyond everyone reasoning and react with people commit. That ends my very-very religious heart, now I don’t ask God “why?” anymore, instead I ask myself “how?”. I wanna find a way that even without God, people still can live happily ever-after.

Personality? Well, I’m pretty kind to all living things, except insecta and especially kecoak, hehee… I have a motto: you-nice-to-me = I-nice-to-you x 2. hahaa, pretty good, right? But if you’re ‘not-nice’ to me, then I won’t be ‘very-nice’ to you, not even if I look kinda nice.

I find it hard to resist helping others if they ask for help, especially elders and females, maybe because my grandfather in my mind is elder, whom I respect most, and female as my mother in my heart, whom I love most. But maybe it’s my nature to help others, I feel useless if I can’t help people even for some silly thing.

Love, hahahaa, it taste like rainbow, many colour in many ways. My first love is my teacher in English Club, for lending me a pencil in test, funny huuh? My second love is my math teach in school, for telling me not to hold back, another funny. It’s a love in Junior school, so called ‘monkey-love’, but I don’t think I will love another teacher again, hahahhaa… I’m no good in dealing with girl, left alone with a girl and the world feels like crumbling, and even worst if I love like the girl.

My Pride is high, higher than Everest, taller than Eiffel. People says “Pride can kill”, well it might be true. My pride often brought me falling down, if I just can wore off this pride a little bit, I think I can be a better me. Really, Pride is just an excuse for our fear and the prove of uselessness. Everytime Pride is involve, we are lying to ourself, to defend our selfless and pitiful us, pathetic, right?

And Dream, hehee, the best part of our life, the Dream of Happiness. My childhood dream was to become one of Power Ranger, pretty simple and totally dreaming, hehee… For my Worldclass Dream, is to have a World of Peace, which Happiness is the topic in the morning and the Love is the moon of the night. But growing up really ceast our dream away, knowing the reality is not that friendly to us, the taste of sour reality erase our hope, we will eventually forget how to hoping and God seems to blur away. Well, I still can hope and dream, for one purpose only, creating a fine family and taste happiness as much as I can.

Yeah, still, nothing is better than being a me.